Monday, March 1, 2010

There's No Dawn For Me


I am fighting

And fighting

And fighting

With this darkness from a long long time.

Again I get bruised, broken and defeated

But making the enemy more weaker

I am so desperate for dawn that I keep trying

Again and again and again


Why??

Why???

Even after putting so much effort

Bearing so much pain

Shedding so much blood

I can’t reach for the dawn till now??

This question was unanswered as always

But a hope that next battle will be the last one

Drives power in my broken body


Battle gets fiercer every time

Demanding more of my blood

And giving more bruises

But this time things get in my control

And finally I won

Yes, I get passed from the darkness

And rode the path leading to the dawn

My victory was sweet but some what bitter too


As I was standing at the line separating

Dark night and the dawn

I see backward and remembered

Whenever darkness was occupied with me

Many weak people who were trapped in darkness

From a long time

Reach for their destination

Easily, effortlessly and

Without shedding their blood

Is it really worth to reach for the dawn??

My absence from darkness means

Many of them will remain trapped in darkness forever

Though my presence in dawn doesn’t matter for anyone

But my presence in darkness

Ensures a safe passage for many

These thoughts overpower my desperation for dawn.

I took a closer look at the dawn and said, “Next time”


I return back

Back to the battle ground

Back to my armors and swords

Coz I realized that the real battle has just begun

All my questions were answered today

As deep inside I now know that:

“There’s Never A Dawn For Me”

.


15 comments:

The Aspirant said...

Hi readers
This is something i am trying to write from a wrong time, yet unprepared for this write-up i put it down, coz i can't stop myself now..
U decide hws it??
cheers :)

Sweetness said...

Going by what is put down, I liked the flow and the positivity that was building up, but, the last statement "there will never be a dawn for me" was a little disturbing to read. It's a great attempt at putting down your thoughts and expressing yourself and I'm sure with passing time you will get better with the expression. I liked your poem, however, just wish that you do not loose hope!

Zave said...

Warriors are hardly meant to live for themselves. Put that out very well, the dilemma in his mind about his pleasures and his duties.
And duty should ideally win (according to me).
Keep writing.

The Aspirant said...

@sweetness
Well i think you didn't get it right....d last line suggests dat for others to find light one person has to sacrifice his desire for light and remain in dark forever....
Thanx for your comment :)

The Aspirant said...

@Zave
Rightly said my frnd.....

cheers :)

Shas said...

A glimmer of hope is enough for some to go on fighting coz they know that even if they are not able to see the light of the day, their sacrifice won't go in vain as it will definitely help others reach that destination which he had desired.

Its like dying for humanity n not just for self.

The Aspirant said...

@Shas
Well, i agree with you, but is a warrior not supposed to live for himself ever???
Is it worth dat he alwaz remain in darkness, for dose who dint evn giv a try to a fight??
On part of warrior its tru he can't go to dawn leaving others behind, but others shud also take some responsibilty for d one whos fighting for them......but sadly they never did..

SatyU said...

hmm.. Very thoughtful post yaar :)
As always I identify myself in your writeups.
Mayb we are made with such a type of heart that we wanna live for others rather than caring for our lives.
But remember onething, we are the creator of our destiny. If you really want you can get out and reach the dawn but its purely your choice to remain in the dark and help others. When you have choosen this path I dont think we should complain about it. Coz one day all the good you are doing will be paid back. You will reach the dawn and even keep up your morals.
Just wait for it yaar.. dont loose the hope like that.. Everything gonna be fine , it gonna turn out the way you want it to be :)

Takecare
btw.. nice write up :)

The Aspirant said...

@Satyu
Hw can a hope be derived from everything....and you know wad whenever he tries to leave darkness, same situation is wad he faces.......coz sumtyms nthing is paid off....
but nice to see ur such a positive attitude...

cheers :)

Americanising Desi said...

we shouldnt forget to create what is in our power and our destiny sure is :)

lovely writing and amazing words!

The Aspirant said...

@Americanising Desi
Thanx fr lovely comment :)

Shadow said...

a born warrior... willing to sacrafice the self for others. not many of those around.

The Aspirant said...

@shadow
Well, yeah u r right......but sumtyms it becums mandatory fr some persons.....

Shas said...

Hi i liked the background of ur blog. It adds quite a glitter to ur page.

The Aspirant said...

@shas
Thanx a ton for liking it.....i seriously want sum1 to comment on my new template....

cheers :)

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