A Gal So Different.........

Don’t know from where I get the exact idea of writing it, but just know that I have at least something to write on it……….and that’s why I am here. Actually I am writing here imagining a gal .who is quite, no, totally different from girls around us………

She’s a mystery. Yes, a mystery for solving which you has to spend your whole life if you try it in the way you do with other girls. But it would only take a few hours, to know all about her if you are her best friend and you can chat for long hours with her.

So much honest and truthful to you she is.

She’s egoistic and short-tempered.

Truly she’s so egoistic that you don’t talk to her for just one day and she will not talk to you for a week, and even after that she will talk to you if you have asked for sorry for a good number of times. Also, she will kill you if you hide something from her or said anything wrong. She will scold you for wrong things you have done and even shed a lot of tears if anything happens to you, even if you get a bruise.

So much caring and loving she is.

She’s quite clever and funny.

Of course she’s very clever. She just gets a hint of anything and she will get that thing out of you. You can’t hide anything from her, if she gets a hint; your secret is no more a secret. She can make you laugh with crazy and stupid activities all day long. But if you are in a problem, she might not give a solution but will always be there with you to make u feel, that you are not alone.

Such a kind-hearted gal she is.

She’s very intelligent and quick-witted.

Yeah, she scores good marks in studies. Knows when she should enjoy and when she should leave everything and just study. She also knows how to talk with strangers and how with friends. She knows how to react to any circumstance, how much tough the situation is. But, when it comes to her friends, she just blindly trusts them. She tells them just everything, even those things which no one else knows. Just don’t think that she can be used or fell in trouble because of that…………Whatever her friend’s told her, become

Words from heaven for her. She gets hurt because of it, many a times, but still she’s like that only.

Such innocent that girl is and also a great fool.

She makes you laugh; makes you cry, and make you feel her presence even if she’s not around. She care for you, scold you, get angry from you, shout on you and even feel sorry for you, but everything she does is for u.

You can find the qualities written in every paragraph’s starting in every gal but the qualities at end are found rarely, very rarely.

I have never found a girl like her but if you find one then do tell me………….

The Dark Forest

Hi friends

Actually today, I have realized what pranks life can play with us and that how much you can get from life when you are on edge of losing yourself. I have realized now that how much happiness you feel when you think that you have lost something and suddenly you came to know that it was your illusion actually, you are gaining something. So I am writing something on that only.

What happen sometimes in life that things don’t go in a way that we have expected. The two roads might be going towards the same goal but may be through different paths. But we sometimes unknowingly enter the path less traveled by, leaving behind the main path leading towards our goal. When such things happen, we started feeling that life is taking us away from our goal and that we are getting lost. We try to turn around but the path has got lost till that time and a fear starts developing in us. The darkness on that path and the loneliness there makes our that fear more profound, and sooner we started believing that now we have lost the path and nothing can’t be done now, we will never reach to our final goal now. At that time the person gets confused in just everything and only negative thoughts seem to overcome his mind. He started thinking what worst can happen now and even sometimes prepare itself for it .He was at the verge of loosing all hope , all aspirations and just everything as that dark forest is getting deeper, thicker and darker but suddenly something shines through his eyes. He tried to keep that glare away from him by keeping his hand in front of eyes but he is not able to stop it and as he looks it completely, it was a ray of hope .It was the bright sunlight that’s guiding him forward now. The dark forests have ended and he now started seeing the road that got missed by him, before entering the forests. So he start moving towards his goal , on his way forward he face many troubles but all of them are nothing in front of that dark forest so he calmly cross all of them as he has the confidence of overcoming the dark forest . So when he finally reach his goal , he realizes that if he might have not entered that dark forest then may be these troubles will not become so easy to overcome for him. Thus although that dark forest scares you to death but trespassing that forest is really an important part of your journey as without that your journey will always remain incomplete.
So never fear of that dark side through which life is taking you just face it as boldly as you can, because

“Darkness is nothing but the absence of light and just one single ray of light will destroy it”

Not Happy With What I Am

Whenever I think about myself,
It’s like reading a book kept on top shelf.
Which seem can be read anytime we want,
But when time came its out of reach like a coconut plant.

I used to think that I am a fool,
Not like others who r considered cool.
Those who frequently change girl friends,
Like it is the latest fashion trend.
Neither like those who say abuses about every gal passing by,
And next day you will find them with one of those gals stand by.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I am neither like the toppers of college,
Who just crams a lot of books without any knowledge.
Nor I am like those who bunks classes every den and now,
And when exams come they just ask what to do now?
I am not one of those who abuses just every teacher,
Nor like dose who walks behind them like they are a gr8 preacher.
So in teachers’ eyes I always remain an average student,
And my internal marks reflected it at every instant.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I always try to become a true friend,
But it seems like now it’s an old trend.
May be that’s d reason why I loose every now and then a friend,
As I just cant remain attached to them like the name of a brand.
I always try to make them realize the mistake that they make,
But most times people misunderstood my care & consider it fake.
Till sometimes ago to me these things never matter,
As I always used to think that coming future will be better.
But when I see such people surrounded by many friends,
Who even didn’t give their friends a damn thought,
And as I am too a human so now it hurts me a lot..
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

Sometimes I try to change myself with this moving generation,
But didn’t get success anytime as these activities do my heart penetration.
The person inside me never allows me to do all that,
As I am not one who didn’t miss any chance of hitting six from his bat.
So finally I decided not to think more of these blunders,
As I have understood that my life can never come out of these thunders.
It’s clear to me now that no matter what anyone say or write in my testimony,
But however strong I try, happiness is never my destiny.
So without expecting anything from anyone now, I am moving forward,
No matter how much trouble I get from life,but I’ll never show my back like a coward
Now I really don’t know that I want to change myself or not
But one thing is clear that I am not happy with what I am.

I am not happy with what I am

With what I am

What Is More Painful ??

The topic on which I am writing my views is not one which is in my mind. One day my friend sends me a message and that reads like it:
“What is more painful..??
When a person whom you trusted hurts you, or the person whom you hurted still trust you….!
Think about it??
“
I got this message during my semester exams, but still this topic is revolving anywhere in my mind .So I have tried to give my best thought to it.

I think before going directly to topic we should describe a little bit about trust.
TRUST – this is a word that according to me is the backbone of every relation, I mean friendship, love, family relation, etc. Every relation is strong and can survive any condition if that relation has trust as the foundation stone of it. So this word has great meaning of our life. It is not that we trust every person which comes in our life and neither we should as in that case it can be misused .And this trust grows when other person puts his/her trust on you. Trust is an inherent property of a person which is most of times not in our control .I mean many times in your life you might have trusted someone without any strong reason behind it, because at those times something from inside forces us to do so.
And that’s the reason why we get hurt because those inside voices are not always right. I am not saying that they are always wrong but my friends not always right also. But as we are humans so we can’t ignore those voices and thus we get backstabbed by the one on whom we put our trust many a times in our life, but this is called life experience.
When someone breaks your trust it’s really a painful situation. It’s not more painful then a broken heart but neither less than it. The person who faces it breaks in many pieces and start questioning himself:
Why that person enters my life?
Why I trust him?
But these questions mostly remain unanswered. And life goes on and victim’s wounds’ get filled by the medicine of time and he sooner or later forgets it.

But the other side of coin is still remaining. Our topics’ second face has not even touched.
What happened when you are on the other side of line?
I mean, What is the scenario when you are hurting someone by broking his/her trust? May be it can be intentional or non-intentional, may be it is the need of that time or not, Whatever the scenario is? .But fact will remain the same that you are hurting someone by doing so. Somewhere in your heart you feel the pain too, but that is a very small wound in comparison to that of victim’s one. But you know what, when that person still didn’t let his/her trust to lift from you, then that wound became an unhealable part of body and the pain that you will feel is just unbearable. The reason for this is that whenever your wound tries to heal with time, that person’s trust didn’t let it to happen as it keeps on reminding you what wrong you have done. The guilt feeling inside you increases every time you see that person still trusting you. So no matter how hard you try to forget that incident but the person’s face will always remain in front of you like a magical mirror that always keep on showing the darker side of you.
So I just want to say that broken trust is a life’s part and an unavoidable situation that is not in our hands but breaking someone’s trust is something that is under our control. The pain is in both conditions but the wound of broken trust heals slowly with time but of the second case will become an untreatable part that will keep on hurting you rest of your life.
So just try not to break anyone’s trust ever, although sometimes it’s really the need of time and at that time you can’t help it out but still we can try it as far as possible.
So with this hope I am moving again with the life expecting broken trust from others but not to break someone’s trust and hope same from you.

Cheers

Friendship - In Honour of Ma Best Friend Sush

So finally this year 2008 is bidding farewell.
In these last hours of this year, I really want to write something on a good topic,
I thought about many things on which I should write, and then I reminded that this year has given me friends only, not only friends but very good friends.
So I have decided to write on friendship only.

Hmmmmmm
Friendship, that’s a great thing which every person wants in life from always, from the time the humans have started living. It is a great relation that a person can achieve in his/her life .With the modification and development of our society, its meaning keep on advancing but still the base remains the same.

Now talking about our generation .We are living in 21st century. Every person of today has become very much advanced. So they have changed the meaning of Friendship a lot. We always try to find a person or group of peers with whom we can just spent our time in a cozy and comfortable way. It can be a group of classmates in schools , college friends for college , group of colleagues in office , for net we have net friends, and for everywhere we by some means find someone. So we are with them and they are with us, as long as car of our life is moving on a smooth road. But as soon as some pit holes or obstructions starts coming on that road ,we find that our car is moving all alone, with no other car with us .At that time we think- Where all others are gone who are with us on smooth road ???
And we can’t find any answer and then we realize that actually we have not made any friends because as I think “Friends are never made but they are earned”.
Its not that friends, I mean true friends , we can never find ,but we have to do some work to find them and that’s why I always believe that friends are not made they are earned.

Many times people say that Best Friends, etc are all a useless thing, as these people have a belief that there is no need of any one like that. They say they have their family with whom they can share their every problem, so wads the need of a Best Friend???

First answer ma question:
Think all of the incidences of your life and then think:
Does u never have anything that u can’t even share with your parents???
Does u never feel the need of a person on whom u can trust just for everything???
Does u never think of a person who knows u better than you???
Does your heart never ask u to find a person whose shoulder u always get when your eyes become wet, no matter with happiness or sadness???
Does u never get caught in a situation from where u find infinite paths but not able to decide on which to walk???

I don’t know about u, but I always find positive answers of these questions.
So although our mind has developed, our society has became mean, but still we all need such a person on our life. Just the difference is that I ma accepting this fact and may be some of u will no accept it.
Second difference is that we all fear a lot to trust someone to that limit.
I am not at all saying that your fears are wrong. But my friends do u really think that without trusting anyone; u will get such a person. Think, the person sitting next to you in your college also wants such a person but he too has same fear. Then may be u both are with each other for 4 yrs but your that fear never lets u break such a thin line between two of u .Because my friend your trust on him will raise his trust on you.
I am not also saying that trust someone blindly, but my friend u can at least gave chance to other person. May be sometimes your trust will break and u have to face some adverse situations but my friend
“If u didn’t enter the pool because of fear of drowning, then will u ever be able to learn it .I don’t think so.”

Whatever I have said above is not just I have written, but I have faced every situation above, so I am saying all this from my personal experience.

So with this coming year 2009, I just wish that all of u should at least try to find a Best Friend, True Best Friend in your life, may be it will take sometime for you in finding him/her but believe me if u get him/her na, then your life will be floating like a bird flying in the sky.
At Last adding one very good message:
“Who is a friend??
I tell u:
Jo bin bulaye aaye,
Bewajah Sir Khaye,
Tum ek(1) kaho , wo chaar(4) sunaye,
Kabhi hansaye, kabhi rulaye,
Par hamesha saath nibhaye.
“

Importacne Of Defeats

This is my first post here .Actually posting anything first time in any blog.
This is a kind of story that will greet you with a situation which i think 90% of people of my age group faces .So this is just to give u an idea what actually are our defeats made for.
so here it is:

What are my defeats ???
That I can’t perform in class 10 or that I can’t perform again in 12th or that when I dint get any good result in my first attempt of Engineering Entrance Exams or that one when even trying so much harder I even get worse results in Entrance Exams next year.
I don’t know what are they but they have defeated me, they have left me starving and force me to think ,
Is it really doesn’t matter how much effort I put I will be landed in the same results???
Is defeat has become my destiny in watever work I do???
Is I have lost that person in me who was once a winner???
Is that spirit has completely lost which keep me forcing to keep up with my results for seven continuous years???
Where that person gone who never say die to any situation???
Where that person gone who always see a ray of light in every damn situation???
Where?? Where??

Actually , after the results of my drop year and landing in a place where I never wanna be .I have no answer for all of these questions .I was so hopeless , so much disturbed , so much exhausted ,without any aim left in my mind , without any dreams left in my eyes. I just don’t know what I will do now?? What I wanna do ?? Know nothing .Just Nothing.

I am always a good counselor for others , not that I am boasting myself but I really know that , but another fact is that I can’t counsel myself ever. Actually noone can counsel himself as when you try to do that you always get confused in your views only .But at that time I am really in a need of another me ,who can tell me where I went wrong , who can support me .My parents are there with me but the support that a person in my condition wants can be given by a person of my age group only but that person I never get.
So finally I decided to put all the blame on destiny and with that attitude I entered in my college life.
There my approach was different totally coz I wanna change myself completely. I wanna kill myself and become like others ,who never studied as hard as I did but still are in a better place than me. And I succeeded in that too .From College’s first day my approach was to do masti ,enjoy life and keep away from studies as far as possible. Made a good group there with whom bunked classes , played basketballs in class timings and every other sort of fun, Movies , Mc Donalds ,etc .Just everything. Internals came and go , just study in internal days and get good marks. Really felt good .As first time I am putting less effort and getting more output. Where the first SEM go dint know ?? Actually when the semester exams came ,pata hi nahin chala. Then try to study but that habit was gone and with only that less study gave my exams and to my surprise even the exams gone very good. The result came and that was just amazing ,that I can not even believe.
But u know wad???
That result was my BIGGEST DEFEAT.
Its bigger then my bad 10th result , bitter den 12th one and worst then my drop year one.
Yes that’s the truth that I have found .This damn truth is hurting , very confusing and have no sense at all in eyes of people who are around us.
But truth is always in that form only. People just fear to face it.
Yes my first semester’s good results are my biggest defeat.
Why??
Lemme tell u. Wenever I get bad result I stood up with more confidence to face the next challenge. To show ,not to others , but just to me that I am not weak , I am not just a damn person lost in the world’s crowd. So every time I tried harder and failed .But that failure still is not complete failure coz that makes me strong internally , mentally and increases my confidence to face challenges.
But present result , it just asks me to keep doing what others are doing .To keep my identity lost in this crowd , to become just a damn engineer whose counting are in lakhs in our country.
To just not see any big dream as people like me will never get to that dream.To just be a stupid common man.

But when i took this result as my defeat ,this defeat again proves a teacher for me. It makes me realize that I am not a one from the crowd .It gives me the answer of my questions which at that time I dint get.
It tells me that No defeat is not your final destination , all these defeats you are facing coz you need strength for a much bigger thing.
It tell me that the person in me has gone nowhere , it is still with me and will remain there always just I am not allowing him to come out with full energy.
It tells me that I have not stopped dreaming neither my aims get destroyed from my mind , just the fact is that I am not letting them talk to me.
So again this defeat gives me a ray of hope , a motive to live my life , a new challenge to be completed and most important it has given me myself back.

So with this new energy ,with this new motivation I am again riding on the horse to chase my dreams ,with sword in my hand and eye on my aim ,What happen if I fall again in this race while fighting with any obstacle in between , What happen if I get bruises of evil words of criticization of people around me , but all this can never stop me from moving forward , may be they can slow me down but my every fall and my every bruise will strengthen me and made me more desperate for my destination .As now there is no end for me because I have understood that:

""No defeat is final & no bruise is permanent ,
Until U reach Ur Final Goal and break it into Fragments.""