Not Happy With What I Am

Whenever I think about myself,
It’s like reading a book kept on top shelf.
Which seem can be read anytime we want,
But when time came its out of reach like a coconut plant.

I used to think that I am a fool,
Not like others who r considered cool.
Those who frequently change girl friends,
Like it is the latest fashion trend.
Neither like those who say abuses about every gal passing by,
And next day you will find them with one of those gals stand by.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I am neither like the toppers of college,
Who just crams a lot of books without any knowledge.
Nor I am like those who bunks classes every den and now,
And when exams come they just ask what to do now?
I am not one of those who abuses just every teacher,
Nor like dose who walks behind them like they are a gr8 preacher.
So in teachers’ eyes I always remain an average student,
And my internal marks reflected it at every instant.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I always try to become a true friend,
But it seems like now it’s an old trend.
May be that’s d reason why I loose every now and then a friend,
As I just cant remain attached to them like the name of a brand.
I always try to make them realize the mistake that they make,
But most times people misunderstood my care & consider it fake.
Till sometimes ago to me these things never matter,
As I always used to think that coming future will be better.
But when I see such people surrounded by many friends,
Who even didn’t give their friends a damn thought,
And as I am too a human so now it hurts me a lot..
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

Sometimes I try to change myself with this moving generation,
But didn’t get success anytime as these activities do my heart penetration.
The person inside me never allows me to do all that,
As I am not one who didn’t miss any chance of hitting six from his bat.
So finally I decided not to think more of these blunders,
As I have understood that my life can never come out of these thunders.
It’s clear to me now that no matter what anyone say or write in my testimony,
But however strong I try, happiness is never my destiny.
So without expecting anything from anyone now, I am moving forward,
No matter how much trouble I get from life,but I’ll never show my back like a coward
Now I really don’t know that I want to change myself or not
But one thing is clear that I am not happy with what I am.

I am not happy with what I am

With what I am