Mystery Of Love And Lyf

(Vishal’s Room) (11 AM)

It was a very nervous day for all 4th year students. Coz next day they were having interview with a big multi-national company IBM for On-campus placements. Vishal & his batch mates were in his room and discussing all this. Sameer, his roommate, entered the room with two passes in his hand, “Guess what I have got? Vishal said,” No! Don’t tell that you have got them this time. This all is a waste of time only. Mind my words.” Actually, Sameer finally got passes for famous Tarot Card Reader, Madam Maya, for which he was trying from last 2 months. He wants to know that will they make it to placements or not. Vishal didn’t believe in all these things so he was least interested but with friends you sometimes left with no choice. In evening, they both went to Madam Maya’s place. After she told Sameer about his future, Vishal went inside.

Maya: “Hello! Vishal. I know you came here just coz of your friend.”

Vishal:”How do you now this. Oh yes! Sameer has told you.”

Maya: “You know he didn’t tell me anything. I know this, but I too know that you will never believe me.”

Vishal: “If you know then just tell me about tomorrow placements and let me go.”(In a calm voice)

Maya: “You will definitely get it.Coz No one else deserves better place then you.”

Vishal: “Okay! Thanks! I should leave now”. (In a rude manner)

Maya: “Are you sure you don’t want to ask anything more.”

Vishal: “No. I am not interested in knowing my future.”(In a straight voice)

Maya: “Not if it’s related to your past. Specifically, your love” (In a strange voice)

Vishal: “How do you know about it? What about it? “(In an angry but low voice)

Maya: “Love will again come in your life in next 2 years, but the cycle of past will repeat itself in a reverse way” (in a suspicious voice)

Vishal: “What do you mean by that? “(In a doubted voice)

Maya: “You have to find it yourself. You can leave now. “(In a calm voice)

Vishal have no other option but to leave but her words keep echoing in his mind. He told Sameer only about placements not what else Maya has told him.

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(Vishal’s Room) (2 AM)

Sameer was sleeping peacefully, while Vishal was still awake. He was sitting on his bed and switching table-lamp button on-off-on-off. (Tak-tick-tak-tick). He was in his past 2 years back:

(College Auditorium)

Vishal was in second year at that time. They have organized a Fresher’s Party for first year students of their college. It was a great night full of masti and bash.

Vishal and Shweta were dancing on the dance floor.

Shweta was Vishal’s beloved. They were friends from 10^th class but in college came closer and become lovers. They love each other very much; just Shweta is quite much possessive.

They were dancing beautifully. The song stopped and Mr. Fresher and Miss Fresher were chosen. Ruchi was chosen as Miss Fresher and Himanshu as Mr. Fresher. They get a chance to dance with second year students who were chosen Mr. & Miss Fresher in their first year. But that’s the biggest problem for Vishal. Coz he was Mr. Fresher last year and he has to dance with Ruchi now. But he can see Shweta’s angry face. Ruchi came to Vishal and they both dance. Vishal’s eyes were on Shweta only, whose eyes were burning like volcano. Finally, she took her bag and left the party. Vishal too ran behind her. She moves outside the college. Vishal was running from behind and shouting, “Hey wait.”

Finally he grabbed her and said, “Hey. What happened? Why you came out like that?” (Grasping back for his breath)

Shweta: “Why do you care? You go and dance with her. “(In an angry voice)

Vishal: “Hey yaar. You are making it a big issue. It’s just a dance.” (In a straight voice)

Shweta: “Yeah! I have seen that. How much closer you are to her. Go, she will be waiting for you.” (She’s getting heated up and started moving)

Vishal: “Ok Ok I am sorry. You know I Love You Only.”

Shweta: “I don’t care” (furiously)

She was crossing the road, while Vishal said: “I will die without you”

Shweta turned and said:” I will too”

Suddenly, a truck at high speed came and ………….

Only Vishal’s scream was heard: “Shwetaaaaa”.

Vishal get back in time and tears were flowing from his eyes. Only the words “Cycle of past will repeat itself” were still troubling him.

Next day Vishal get the best post as predicted by Madam Maya. Sameer too get a job but in a different city.

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(2 years later)(IBM’s Office)(9:30 AM)

Vishal was working on his project when a voice came, “Good morning Vishal”.

Vishal look up with a smile and said,” Good morning to you too Aakriti.”

Aakriti was Vishal’s project partner from last 2 years. This is their fifth project together and they are the best team. She was the only close friend of Vishal, as they used to spend much time together because of project, so they share many things of their life including about Shweta. Aakriti loves Vishal very much but never expressed coz she fear that she can loose a friend.

Aakriti: “So today too you stay here whole night. What is this yaar? You will get your health affected…” (In a concerned voice)

Vishal: “Yeah Yeah. I know that. But this is just going to complete now and after that I am free. Now you will give me lecture only or help me too in finishing it.”

They both completed the project and for their great work they are getting a promotion as well as their boss organized a party in their honour, the following night.

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(Hotel Radisson) (9 PM)

Everybody was congratulating Vishal and Aakriti for their brilliant work. Vishal was looking very happy.Aakriti thought that may be it’s the right time to tell Vishal her feelings Aakriti forced him to dance with her, he was not interested but he has to.

While they were dancing, Aakriti came closer to him, put her head on his shoulder and said: “I Love You”. Vishal was taken aback. He was shocked hearing that words and he left the dance floor and sit on his table

Aakriti came and said: “I know you can’t forget your past. But you can’t spend life alone too. I really love you a lot from past 1 year but can never tell u as I fear I might loose you. “

Vishal was not hearing anything; Madam Maya’s words make his way back in his mind “Cycle of Past Will Repeat Itself”. Though, he too has little feelings for her But he don’t want to loose her friend too. He knows what she’s saying is right, but he just can’t ignore those words.

Aakriti: “Vishal! Vishal! Please say something…”

Vishal: “I have never thought about it. Sorry I think I am not the right guy for you.”(In a low voice)

Aakriti: “You are perfect for me. I love you the way you are. I just want to spend…..”

Vishal (interrupting her): “No I can’t do that. I love Shweta only and will do it my whole life. I can’t love anyone else ever” (in a high voice)

Aakriti: “Okay. Why you never care for my feelings? You love hurting yourself na by doing this but every time you get hurt, I too cry. Do whatever you want.”

With tears in her eyes, she left the party, Vishal went back behind her.

Vishal: “Aakriti please listen. I don’t want to loose a friend like you.”

Aakriti keep on moving on road without listening.

Vishal: “Plz Yaar I can’t afford to loose you.”

Aakriti turned back and said, “Neither will I…”

The past was repeating itself just as it was, Vishal know what was going to happen. He was looking around and just saw a speeding car coming towards her, Vishal ran towards her and……….

Only one scream was heard, “Vishaaalll….”

Vishal save her but he can’t save himself. He was crushed to death by that car.

Madam Maya’s words were not untrue. Just Vishal can’t understand them. He never gives focus on what she actually said. He focused on words “Cycle of past will repeat itself”

But forget that she said: “Cycle of past will repeat itself in a REVERSE WAY”.

Sometimes life play mysterious games in which we can never ever think of winning.

(P.S: Possessiveness is a good thing, but much of it becomes harmful many a times. Do believe your love or friends always coz sometimes it leads to great troubles & casualties.)

(P.P.S: Don’t believe on anyone’s word but if believe then hear then and understand them properly, coz incomplete knowledge is quite harmful)

(P.P.P.S: Mere Dost Kisi Se Mohabbat Na Karna

Mohabbat Karo Toh Poora Bharosa Karna

Kyunki Jab Jab Mohabbat Se Kisi Ka Bharosa Utha Hai

Tab Tab Kisi Na Kisi Aashiq Ka Janaza Saja hai…………….)

I WISH I WORTH MORE THAN Rs.1.50

It was a normal cool night of April. Aman, a tall, handsome guy wearing spectacles on his nose was lying on his bed and waiting for the clock to strike 12 ,because next day was his birthday ,still 10 minutes were left .He was in deep thoughts, don’t know what was going in his mind but he was totally covered up by his thoughts. Suddenly, his phone rang, he saw the clock and it was exact 12. A smile came on his face as he picked up his phone, but it vanishes seeing the name that is flashing on the screen. It was his friend Shubham’s phone. He finally answered the call with half heart and received a lot of blessings from other end. Actually, Aman was expecting his best friend, Swati’s call.

Swati and Aman were not childhood or school friends. They have met just 1 year ago in college only but as life is always quite unpredictable, they turn into best friends in just a month. Though Aman was a quite, calm, sincere, thoughtful and helping natured guy Swati was a cute, fun loving, prankster and short tempered gal. Still they were best friends, reason only they better know. Swati always keep on falling in one or other trouble and Aman as usual pull her out of it…………But still she never thank him, coz she thinks that it was his duty as a best friend and still Aman never says anything coz he knows that she is a big stupid gal. The only thing that Aman doesn’t like was her miserly nature. She always gives him a miscall or send a sms, coz she never wants her money to be wasted, and poor Aman always have to call to this stupid gal.

Today too, Aman was expecting a call from her though he knows that she was out of Delhi for 2 days, that means on roaming and she never calls in roaming unless it’s a big emergency. But he believes that his B’day will make her call .In waiting for her call, when sleep overpowered him, he didn’t realize.

Next day, morning was quite bright and sun was shining, but Aman woke up with a dull mood. He quickly checked his mobile for any miss calls, but there were none. He gets ready and leaves for college. His friends were waiting there; they wished him and have got a Birthday Cake for him. With a portrait smile on his face, he cut the cake and celebrated his B’day. Then they went for a movie “Fast N Furious 4”. In the whole movie, aman’s focus was more on his mobile phone then the movie, but it didn’t rang.

After spending whole day with his friend’s, he returned back to his room. Whole day he got calls from his home, relatives, classmates but every time the phone rang his eyes were finding some other name. He switches on the TV and saw some news, but his eyes were glued to phone only. He remains awake till 12, but he didn’t get the birthday gift he really desired.

Next day, Swati was sitting in the canteen with her friends, holding a lovely new guitar in her hand. Aman always want a guitar but as he is too bad in saving money, so Swati know he can never buy it on his own. That’s why she was saving every penny from last one year so that she can gift him a Guitar on his Birthday. She was actually not a miser; she was just trying to save money for her best friend’s gift. She knows that if she will not wish him then next day he will come angrily to her and at that time she will give him the gift.

She was discussing something with her friends; suddenly someone came running to her and said:” Aman! Aman was hit by a speeding cab near the college and he has been rushed to hospital.”

The guitar fell from her hand and she ran towards the nearby hospital with tears running from her eyes. There she saw Aman was lying on the stretcher in a pool of blood, he was being taken to the Operation Theater. On seeing Swati, Aman tried to say something but can’t say. Finally just outside the OT he holds Swati’s hand and say:” I just wish, I worth more than Rs.1.50 for you” and he fainted. No one understood what Aman said but Swati burst into tears coz she knows what he mean. These were Aman’s last words coz he never returned back from that OT and they became a mystery for everyone.

From that day, Swati was never seen in a way she used to be before. She became quite serious and just tried to concentrate on her studies. Many times she can be spotted in her hostel room sitting with the guitar and just wishing that may be she can ever tell Aman what he mean for her and understands that her one phone call mean much more than a guitar for him.

May be Aman’s death was destined, but her one call that day can make him die with a satisfaction that he worth at least more than Rs.1.50 for his best friend.

(P.S: Don’t ever wait for telling someone how much he/she mean to you coz may be later you will never get a chance. Some people think of giving big surprises to their friends but they neglect small things by which they can give much more happiness to their friends.)

NOTHING IS WRITTEN IN OUR HANDS

Hmmmmm

I am not an astrologer ,neither a great priest, nor a renowned person who has very high thinking…….

I am just a normal person, like you, like every common Indian. I think in the way you thinks, I believe the things you believe. In our country, there’s a very old belief that our whole destiny is written in our hands. That’s why whenever we have some problem in our life, either it is related to money or health or education, we go to some astrologer or priest or anyone in whom we have faith. They first see our hand, to read our life.

But I don’t believe in it. It’s not that I am non-believer from birth, but from my life I have learned one thing, that it is right that our destiny is in our hands but it is not correct that it is in the lines of our hands ( hamari taqdeer hamare haathon mein hoti hai, hamare haath ki lakeeron mein nahin)

I mean , whatever effort we put we get it’s result. May be the result we are getting is not 100% but it may be 90% or 80% or 70%. But we can never guess that what result are we getting coz we never know what is 100%. May be we are getting 70% result or our efforts but we can’t compare coz we never know what is 100%. So the only way of achieving success is putting more efforts…………

Some people believe in whatever that is written in their hands, that’s why they just do what someone who has read his palm has told him, and they think that whatever they are achieving in complete, is not lacking anything. For that they even reject the field of their interest and even sometimes reject big opportunities, but they never realize that may be if they have taken the subject of their choice and made their carrier in that field, they will be at a place much higher then the place they are presently…………

So what I think is that, our destination, or achievement, our success , our destiny, everything is in our hands only. I am not here denying that God decides everything, but may be he wants to reach us at Mt.Everest but by believing in the lines of our hands we just never try for that path, we only try for reaching at Kanchenjunga(a lower peak then Everest). So our efforts only decide our final destination………..Our hardwork , Our intellect of choosing the right path, our determination these are the things that decide our future………………

In end I just want to say these beautiful lines by a great men I meet once:

Bekhudi Ki Zindagi Hum Jiya Nahin Kartey

Jaam Haathon Se Cheenkar Piya Nahin Kartey

In Haathon ki Lakeeron Ka Bharosa Mat Kar Mere Dost

Kyunki Taqdeer To Unki Bhi Hoti Hai Jinkey Haath Nahin Hua Kartey…………..

A Gal So Different.........

Don’t know from where I get the exact idea of writing it, but just know that I have at least something to write on it……….and that’s why I am here. Actually I am writing here imagining a gal .who is quite, no, totally different from girls around us………

She’s a mystery. Yes, a mystery for solving which you has to spend your whole life if you try it in the way you do with other girls. But it would only take a few hours, to know all about her if you are her best friend and you can chat for long hours with her.

So much honest and truthful to you she is.

She’s egoistic and short-tempered.

Truly she’s so egoistic that you don’t talk to her for just one day and she will not talk to you for a week, and even after that she will talk to you if you have asked for sorry for a good number of times. Also, she will kill you if you hide something from her or said anything wrong. She will scold you for wrong things you have done and even shed a lot of tears if anything happens to you, even if you get a bruise.

So much caring and loving she is.

She’s quite clever and funny.

Of course she’s very clever. She just gets a hint of anything and she will get that thing out of you. You can’t hide anything from her, if she gets a hint; your secret is no more a secret. She can make you laugh with crazy and stupid activities all day long. But if you are in a problem, she might not give a solution but will always be there with you to make u feel, that you are not alone.

Such a kind-hearted gal she is.

She’s very intelligent and quick-witted.

Yeah, she scores good marks in studies. Knows when she should enjoy and when she should leave everything and just study. She also knows how to talk with strangers and how with friends. She knows how to react to any circumstance, how much tough the situation is. But, when it comes to her friends, she just blindly trusts them. She tells them just everything, even those things which no one else knows. Just don’t think that she can be used or fell in trouble because of that…………Whatever her friend’s told her, become

Words from heaven for her. She gets hurt because of it, many a times, but still she’s like that only.

Such innocent that girl is and also a great fool.

She makes you laugh; makes you cry, and make you feel her presence even if she’s not around. She care for you, scold you, get angry from you, shout on you and even feel sorry for you, but everything she does is for u.

You can find the qualities written in every paragraph’s starting in every gal but the qualities at end are found rarely, very rarely.

I have never found a girl like her but if you find one then do tell me………….

The Dark Forest

Hi friends

Actually today, I have realized what pranks life can play with us and that how much you can get from life when you are on edge of losing yourself. I have realized now that how much happiness you feel when you think that you have lost something and suddenly you came to know that it was your illusion actually, you are gaining something. So I am writing something on that only.

What happen sometimes in life that things don’t go in a way that we have expected. The two roads might be going towards the same goal but may be through different paths. But we sometimes unknowingly enter the path less traveled by, leaving behind the main path leading towards our goal. When such things happen, we started feeling that life is taking us away from our goal and that we are getting lost. We try to turn around but the path has got lost till that time and a fear starts developing in us. The darkness on that path and the loneliness there makes our that fear more profound, and sooner we started believing that now we have lost the path and nothing can’t be done now, we will never reach to our final goal now. At that time the person gets confused in just everything and only negative thoughts seem to overcome his mind. He started thinking what worst can happen now and even sometimes prepare itself for it .He was at the verge of loosing all hope , all aspirations and just everything as that dark forest is getting deeper, thicker and darker but suddenly something shines through his eyes. He tried to keep that glare away from him by keeping his hand in front of eyes but he is not able to stop it and as he looks it completely, it was a ray of hope .It was the bright sunlight that’s guiding him forward now. The dark forests have ended and he now started seeing the road that got missed by him, before entering the forests. So he start moving towards his goal , on his way forward he face many troubles but all of them are nothing in front of that dark forest so he calmly cross all of them as he has the confidence of overcoming the dark forest . So when he finally reach his goal , he realizes that if he might have not entered that dark forest then may be these troubles will not become so easy to overcome for him. Thus although that dark forest scares you to death but trespassing that forest is really an important part of your journey as without that your journey will always remain incomplete.
So never fear of that dark side through which life is taking you just face it as boldly as you can, because

“Darkness is nothing but the absence of light and just one single ray of light will destroy it”

Not Happy With What I Am

Whenever I think about myself,
It’s like reading a book kept on top shelf.
Which seem can be read anytime we want,
But when time came its out of reach like a coconut plant.

I used to think that I am a fool,
Not like others who r considered cool.
Those who frequently change girl friends,
Like it is the latest fashion trend.
Neither like those who say abuses about every gal passing by,
And next day you will find them with one of those gals stand by.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I am neither like the toppers of college,
Who just crams a lot of books without any knowledge.
Nor I am like those who bunks classes every den and now,
And when exams come they just ask what to do now?
I am not one of those who abuses just every teacher,
Nor like dose who walks behind them like they are a gr8 preacher.
So in teachers’ eyes I always remain an average student,
And my internal marks reflected it at every instant.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I always try to become a true friend,
But it seems like now it’s an old trend.
May be that’s d reason why I loose every now and then a friend,
As I just cant remain attached to them like the name of a brand.
I always try to make them realize the mistake that they make,
But most times people misunderstood my care & consider it fake.
Till sometimes ago to me these things never matter,
As I always used to think that coming future will be better.
But when I see such people surrounded by many friends,
Who even didn’t give their friends a damn thought,
And as I am too a human so now it hurts me a lot..
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

Sometimes I try to change myself with this moving generation,
But didn’t get success anytime as these activities do my heart penetration.
The person inside me never allows me to do all that,
As I am not one who didn’t miss any chance of hitting six from his bat.
So finally I decided not to think more of these blunders,
As I have understood that my life can never come out of these thunders.
It’s clear to me now that no matter what anyone say or write in my testimony,
But however strong I try, happiness is never my destiny.
So without expecting anything from anyone now, I am moving forward,
No matter how much trouble I get from life,but I’ll never show my back like a coward
Now I really don’t know that I want to change myself or not
But one thing is clear that I am not happy with what I am.

I am not happy with what I am

With what I am

What Is More Painful ??

The topic on which I am writing my views is not one which is in my mind. One day my friend sends me a message and that reads like it:
“What is more painful..??
When a person whom you trusted hurts you, or the person whom you hurted still trust you….!
Think about it??
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I got this message during my semester exams, but still this topic is revolving anywhere in my mind .So I have tried to give my best thought to it.

I think before going directly to topic we should describe a little bit about trust.
TRUST – this is a word that according to me is the backbone of every relation, I mean friendship, love, family relation, etc. Every relation is strong and can survive any condition if that relation has trust as the foundation stone of it. So this word has great meaning of our life. It is not that we trust every person which comes in our life and neither we should as in that case it can be misused .And this trust grows when other person puts his/her trust on you. Trust is an inherent property of a person which is most of times not in our control .I mean many times in your life you might have trusted someone without any strong reason behind it, because at those times something from inside forces us to do so.
And that’s the reason why we get hurt because those inside voices are not always right. I am not saying that they are always wrong but my friends not always right also. But as we are humans so we can’t ignore those voices and thus we get backstabbed by the one on whom we put our trust many a times in our life, but this is called life experience.
When someone breaks your trust it’s really a painful situation. It’s not more painful then a broken heart but neither less than it. The person who faces it breaks in many pieces and start questioning himself:
Why that person enters my life?
Why I trust him?
But these questions mostly remain unanswered. And life goes on and victim’s wounds’ get filled by the medicine of time and he sooner or later forgets it.

But the other side of coin is still remaining. Our topics’ second face has not even touched.
What happened when you are on the other side of line?
I mean, What is the scenario when you are hurting someone by broking his/her trust? May be it can be intentional or non-intentional, may be it is the need of that time or not, Whatever the scenario is? .But fact will remain the same that you are hurting someone by doing so. Somewhere in your heart you feel the pain too, but that is a very small wound in comparison to that of victim’s one. But you know what, when that person still didn’t let his/her trust to lift from you, then that wound became an unhealable part of body and the pain that you will feel is just unbearable. The reason for this is that whenever your wound tries to heal with time, that person’s trust didn’t let it to happen as it keeps on reminding you what wrong you have done. The guilt feeling inside you increases every time you see that person still trusting you. So no matter how hard you try to forget that incident but the person’s face will always remain in front of you like a magical mirror that always keep on showing the darker side of you.
So I just want to say that broken trust is a life’s part and an unavoidable situation that is not in our hands but breaking someone’s trust is something that is under our control. The pain is in both conditions but the wound of broken trust heals slowly with time but of the second case will become an untreatable part that will keep on hurting you rest of your life.
So just try not to break anyone’s trust ever, although sometimes it’s really the need of time and at that time you can’t help it out but still we can try it as far as possible.
So with this hope I am moving again with the life expecting broken trust from others but not to break someone’s trust and hope same from you.

Cheers