Baby Don't Know Why...?

Days and night go on and on

When i was thinking about this song

Coz i just want to say something

But when you come i just go missing

There's a reason

Why all this happen

It's just not a co-incidence

Baby don't know why

You never understand that

I can't love no one else

No matter how far

You go away from me

Only you will be my strength

I've been with you from so so long

Still why with you i don't belong

I know you've been through hard times

But what i've to do with this crime

Let go the past

Embrace my love

Try and give me a single chance

Baby don't know why

You never understand that

I can't love no one else

No matter how far

You go away from me

Only you will be my strength............

Random feelings 3

Har Gham To Hans Ke Seh Gaye Hum

Par Kahin Ye Akhiri Sazaa Na Ho

Zindagi Se Tab Mohabbat Na Ho Jaye

Jab Zindagi Bachi Na Ho

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I bore every pain with a smile

But it mustn't be my last punishment

That I fell in love with my life

When it isn't much left

Random feelings 2

Yuhin apni zindagi se nikal faikna tha

Toh zindagi mein aake jeena kyun sikhaya

Kam se kam humen ye shikwa to ni hoti

Ki hamara bi koi apna tha

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If you have to throw me out of your life like this

Then why you make me realize what life is

At least i don't have a pain that

I too have someone who is mine

Random feelings 1

Jab jindagi se koi umeed nain rhi thi

Tab tune haath pakadkar jeena sikhaya

Agar yuhin saath chodke jaana tha ek din, mere dost

Toh kyun is rote hue dil ko hasna sikhaya......

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When all expectations from life has been washed away

You were the one who show me how to live

If you too have to leave like this one day, my friend

Then why you made this crying heart learn how to smile......

P.S : Random thoughts really taking a toll on me...

Loneliness Doesn't Haunt Me Anymore

Locked inside a dark room

My nerves were down

My eyes filled with fear

My face seems pale

Was looking around the dark room

With lost hopes

And shattered dreams

Loneliness haunts me

Suddenly the door opened

Some light blinded my eyes

Beneath the light was a girl

To me she seems like snow white

She clinched my hand

And bring me to outer world

To my surprise

It dusn’t seem so worse

Lyf has changed completely

In an instant of time

Sorrows get replaced by happiness

And tears with smile

To me it’s a new beginning

With a new hope and thinking

My world seems blessed

With a friend like that

The sun sets again

And snatched light from my life too

The person who give me light

Left me alone in that dark night

I tried to figure out the things

But all goes in vain

As my life again proves to me

That its all about losses more than gain

Tired and broken I came back

Thinking of the reasons

That gave me this setback

The light turned off

The room gets bolted

I was sitting on the floor like before I did

My eyes were glittering

My face was strong

No more sorrows

No more pain

Coz

Loneliness doesn’t haunt me anymore

It's already been 15 days since the last year ,2009 has bidden goodbye to us and 2010 has made entry in our lives, but my exams were at special times, thus i am away. Although I am thankful to my exams as first 12 days of my year has gone in studying. So not at all a bad starting for 2010, with books in my hand and loneliness in my mind...........

Here's something in memory of 2009, writing anything after about 2 months, don't know how will it be....?

The year has finally bid goodbye

But deep in my heart it will always stand by

Neither for happiness it has showered

Nor for the sadness it has poured

But for the sake of humanity being again awaken

And the lonely man i have again become

My world has turned upside-down

Amidst which i am standing just like a clown

Watching all the proceedings goin on

My little sand house blowing on

I can not bear this anymore

My sea of frustration has risen above the shore

Alterations have started coming in me

Making me the guy that world wants me to be

I have lost my own self identity

And turned into an indistinguishable entity

In this way loneliness haunts me

Snatching humanity that i carry with me

Each and every moment i mourn for my loss

And all this let evil forces become my boss

But year end was not at all the same

Something has again brighten my inner flame

The flame that remembered me myself

I felt like being rescued by a magical elf

My shattered confidence has came back

Making me strong

Making me indestructible

Giving me back the original me

I still mourn for my loss sometimes

But that pain doesn't make me weak anymore

P.S : Happy New Year 2010 to everyone.........

Kabhi Main Bhi Insan Hua Karta Tha / I Used To Be A Human Once

Ek samay tha jab main bhi jiya karta tha

Kuch sapne aankhon mein liye rakhta tha

Par aaj yaad aata hai wo zamana

Jab main bhi insaan hua karta tha

Is seene mein ek chota sa dil tha

Jo kisi ke liye dhadka kiya karta tha

Par humen mila sirf dard-e-ishq

Wo to kisi aur se mohabbat kiya karta tha

Fir aaj us mohabbat ne yaad dilaya

Ki kabhi main bhi insaan hua karta tha

Doston ke har dard ko unse pehle

Mujhse hokar gujarna padta tha

Par wo dost bhi mujhey ye kehkar tanhan chod gaye

ki tu to hamari bas ek zarurat hua karta tha

Wo tanhan raatein aaj ehsaas karati hain

Ki ek zamane mein main bhi insaan hua karta tha

Duniya har pal mere saath hoti thi

Jab main kaamyabi ke shikhar pe hua karta tha

Par jab-jab thokar khake gira us shikhar se

Mujhe rone ke liye kandha bhi nahin milta tha

Un aansu bhari aankhon ki kasam

Tab main bhi insaan hua karta tha

Aaj ye dil pathar ho chuka hai

Fir bhi mere liye sabka dil dhadakta hai

Mere liye dosti mehez shabd se zyada kuch nahin rahi ab

Fir bhi har koi mujhse dosti ke liye tarasta hai

Ab insaniyat se koi waasta nahin raha mera

Fir bhi har koi mujhe behtar insaan samajhta hai

Is sab ko dekhkar mein hanskar khud se sawal karta hun

Kyun main kabhi ek insaan hua karta tha??

Kyun main kabhi ek insaan hua karta tha??

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Once upon a time I too used to live

Having some dreams in my eyes

But today I remember that world

When I used to be a human

There was a small heart behind my chest

That used to beat for someone

But I got only pain of love

Coz she used to love someone else

But today that love made me remember

At that time I too used to be a human

All the pain of my friends

Have to pass through me before reaching them

Those friends too leave me alone by saying

That I used to be a mere need of them

Those lonely nights made me realize

At a time I too used to be a human

World was with me always

When I am touching the heights of success

Whenever I fell from that height

I never get a shoulder to even cry

I swear those tear-filled eyes

I used to be human at that time

Today my heart has become rock

Still people’s heart beat for me

Friendship does not remain more than a word for me now

Still everyone desire to become my friend

I don’t have any relation with humanity now

Still the whole world assumes me to be a good and better human

Seeing all this I laugh and ask one question to myself

Why I used to be a human at a time??

Why I used to be a human at a time??

What Was My Mistake ????

It’s been many months now

The day we last spoken

In that same old warmth

And the same caring way

But things change so soon

And at times least expected

Sometimes changes brings smile to face

But sometimes just stab right at your heart

And that’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

I still remember those small fights

Those helping ways and guiding lights

It was so much fun

And everything seem so bright

But as nothing lasts long here

I got sadness again in my share

But I still don’t regret coz

That’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

You feel I don’t try to understand you

That you were never far away

Just a little busy with career things

Which no one can let escape

But I just have one question

Why that warmth has gone

May be we talk just for few mins

In that those memories can be re-grown

But the person who understand me

Without words didn’t do it this time

As that’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

I just don’t want anything from life

I know neither I can get back that time

Nor will get back you

But I just want to know

Why someone comes to you

Makes you feel that world is not mean

And when you start believing this

They move out of your life

And let you asking yourself

What was my mistake?

But that’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

P.S : I don’t know why I pen down all this boring stuff here, but my depressed mind want to let out some thing of it, and I don’t have any other place.

P.P.S: Not real, neither complete fiction…

Zindagi...........Lyf..............

Lamha Lamha Yuhin Gujar Jaayega

Zindagi Ka Safar Chalta Jaayega

Kabhi Hansayega, Kabhi Rulayega

Kabhi Gham ,Toh Kabhi Khushi De Jaayega

Kisi Ko Door Le Jaayega, Kisi Ko Pass Le Aayega

Har Din Ek Nayi Raah Se Mulaqaat Karayega

Raah Mein Kaanten Na Ho Aisa To Nahin ho Paayega

Par Un Kaanton ke Zakhmon Par Marhan Lagane Waala Bhi Koi Aayega

Wo Zakhm Bharenge Ya Nahin Ye To Aane Waala Waqt Hi Batayega

Par Hum Akele Nahin Hain Jahan Mein, Is Baat Ka Yakeen Ho Jaayega

Kal Kya Hoga Is Baat Ka Darr To hamesha Hi Satayega

Par Is Pal Mein Jee Le Mere Dost, Kyunki Ye Pal Khud Ko Dobara Nahin Dohrayega

Voices Of My Heart - Part 1

Bhatke Hue Raahi Ko , Koi na Koi raah dikha hi deta hai

Gham mohabbat ka ho ya dosti ka, shayari sikha hi deta hai...........

Kisi ne humen dil se awaz di aur woh hum tak na pahunche

Aisa ho nahin sakta,
Hamarey doston tak hamara har raaz na pahunche
Aisa ho nahin sakta,
Unki dosti ka har lamha is tarah dil mein basa hai
Ki hazaron dard milney par bhi hum us dosti ko bhula den
Aisa ho nahin sakta.....................

Is naseeb ki baat na karo, isney bahut zakhm diye hain

Hamari raahon par kaante, nahin isney kam diye hain
Fir bhi issey ladtey nahin
Fir bhi issey kuch kehtey nahin
Kyunki isi naseeb ne hi to aap jaisey humsafar diye hain.........

Unse milkar is Dil ko yakeen hua ki sacchey dost bhi hotey hain
Is dhoop se jhulasti zindagi mein kuch pal chaon ke bhi hotey hain
Par jab wo bhi hamara saath chod gaye
To is dil ko kaise samjhayen, ki zindagi mein ye pal bhi aam hotey hain..........

Not Happy With What I Am

Whenever I think about myself,
It’s like reading a book kept on top shelf.
Which seem can be read anytime we want,
But when time came its out of reach like a coconut plant.

I used to think that I am a fool,
Not like others who r considered cool.
Those who frequently change girl friends,
Like it is the latest fashion trend.
Neither like those who say abuses about every gal passing by,
And next day you will find them with one of those gals stand by.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I am neither like the toppers of college,
Who just crams a lot of books without any knowledge.
Nor I am like those who bunks classes every den and now,
And when exams come they just ask what to do now?
I am not one of those who abuses just every teacher,
Nor like dose who walks behind them like they are a gr8 preacher.
So in teachers’ eyes I always remain an average student,
And my internal marks reflected it at every instant.
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

I always try to become a true friend,
But it seems like now it’s an old trend.
May be that’s d reason why I loose every now and then a friend,
As I just cant remain attached to them like the name of a brand.
I always try to make them realize the mistake that they make,
But most times people misunderstood my care & consider it fake.
Till sometimes ago to me these things never matter,
As I always used to think that coming future will be better.
But when I see such people surrounded by many friends,
Who even didn’t give their friends a damn thought,
And as I am too a human so now it hurts me a lot..
So I always want to change myself,
As I am not happy with What I Am.

Sometimes I try to change myself with this moving generation,
But didn’t get success anytime as these activities do my heart penetration.
The person inside me never allows me to do all that,
As I am not one who didn’t miss any chance of hitting six from his bat.
So finally I decided not to think more of these blunders,
As I have understood that my life can never come out of these thunders.
It’s clear to me now that no matter what anyone say or write in my testimony,
But however strong I try, happiness is never my destiny.
So without expecting anything from anyone now, I am moving forward,
No matter how much trouble I get from life,but I’ll never show my back like a coward
Now I really don’t know that I want to change myself or not
But one thing is clear that I am not happy with what I am.

I am not happy with what I am

With what I am