Would you ever know ?

Why you lie to me, when you know I know you more than you do

Why you become upset, when you know I can bring that smile back

Why you want to be alone, when you know I won’t let you enjoy loneliness

Why you start ignoring me, when you know you can’t hide your tears from me

Why?

Just why?

Would you ever know, that your every lie gives me a fresh wound

Would you ever know, that your sadness made my world to stop

Would you ever know, that your loneliness leaves me deserted

Would you ever know, that your tears crash my whole world

Would you ever know?

P.S: One of the beautiful part of life is when you have a person who cares for you no matter who you are.........

Friendship.....

Friendship is not always only about :

- Being a shoulder for the friend to cry on

- Being a teddy to be hugged in sadness and happiness

- Being a personal diary to hold the darkest secrets

- Being the only medicine for heartaches

But it's also about being the silent guardian who takes care of you 24*7 without showing even after death.........

P.S: Have no ideas to write upon coz i am really screwed big time......just have written few lines on friendship so thought of sharing it...

Price Of Not Trusting Him

It is around 11 in night & its raining cats and rain from last 4 days. The lightning was roaring like a wounded lion. Everyone was waiting for this weather to change so that life can turn back on track, people are trapped inside their houses but on the terrace of a 13 Floor building, someone is not cared about it, someone is just trying to hide his broken soul in this lunatic climate. A guy in his early 20’s, was drinking there from the evening.

While taking his first drink, he remembered:

“She: Hey you are the best thing I have ever had in my life, how will I take care of things if you are not with me. You are really a best friend that everyone just dreams of.”

With next one:

“He: I have heard something happen during dance practice today for fest?

She: Arey my dance partner, Alok, he tried to touch me here and there while dancing, I gave him a tight slap and disciplinary committee is too acting against him.

He: I will not leave that bastard, I will…………

She (interrupting him): Don’t do anything yaar, I don’t want you to fall in any trouble and action is taken against him na, so calm down.”

Making another shot of vodka:

“She: Mmmmmm.I have to confess something, but yaar please don’t get angry on this, promise me first.

He: Okk promise.

She: mmmmm actually, I was talking with a guy, I mean with Rohit from last one month. He is really a very nice guy, I have gone on lunch with him too, many times……….actually he proposed me and I have said “Yes”.

He: What?? All this is going from so many days and you are telling me now……..What is this yaar? I mean you hide things from me too…………

She: You have promised something….

He: Ok ok but…….Congrats!!! Yaar.......I wish you two have a great life.”

As he finished another glass:

“She: Yaar today is Rohit’s birthday and he is giving a party at his place, but I am very very ill, I want you to take my gift and give it to him personally…….plzzzzzzz”

“At rohit’s place:

Rohit: You have brought that pill, I have asked for. Once, this go inside her and she gets unconscious, then we both will fuck that bitch. Let her know the consequences of getting you suspended from college.

Alok: You are a true friend dude. I will make her mms too; let everyone see the punishment of that bitch Our plan is nearing the end.”

While routing the whole bottle towards his mouth:

“She: How dare you touch him? He has told me everything……….He is in hospital with so many broken parts…….I have send you for what and you have done what…..

He: But listen to me yaar………he is ……..

She : I just don’t want to listen anything………he has told me many times that you hate him and see him weirdly but I never believe……..I wish I had…..

He: But he was planning to rape you……….

She slapped him in front of everyone, “I never know that you will become so cheap to separate us. I was cursing the day I have made you my friend……….Just get lost from here and never show me your face again…….

He: But…….

She: Just go to hell………..”

With every drink, he was remembering the past…….and bang his fist on the table. His salty tears were getting mixed with the fresh rain water…………he was drinking continuously……

His tears stop and he move towards the edge of terrace, he looked towards heaven and murmured something. Take out his mobile, made a call…….it was disconnected from the other end. He again tried……..again disconnected. After 7 continuous attempts he succeeded

She: Why the hell you can’t let me peacefully?

He: Plz don’t hang up…….I am begging you. (his voice was showing his complete condition)

She: Have you drink?

He: That does not matter…..Actually nothing matters now (laughingly). I know everything is over but I just want to warn you……

She: So Again some new trick?

He: Please don’t hung up…….don’t do it…..don’t…..

She: You are not in a state, we will talk tomorrow….

He: No No No ……..Plz don’t hung up…….I don’t have tomorrow….I just want to say that ………yeah that I just always want to see you happy…………..

(pause)

She: Hello you there……..

He: yeah yeah yeah …………..don’t hung up please…….I just want you to get every happiness of the world…….

(a long pause)

Just stay away from that …….that Rohit……he is Alok’s friend……..and and not a right guy for you…..

You wish me to go to hell na……ha ha ha ha ha so granting you that too

Just take good care……..good care of yourself….

She: Hey don’t do…… (beep beep beep)

Phone disconnected, she tried many times but phone was switched off, The first thing she saw in morning news is:

“A guy, in his early 20’s, fell off the 13^th floor of a building and died on the spot .Further investigations showed that he was quite heavily drunk Most mysterious thing is a note obtained from his jeans having the words: Even court trust the word of a dying person, why don’t you trust mine? ”

P.S: Sometimes it's just not in our hands....we ourself forces us towards destruction.

P.P.S:We should not neglect friend's points when we fall in love...

What Was My Mistake ????

It’s been many months now

The day we last spoken

In that same old warmth

And the same caring way

But things change so soon

And at times least expected

Sometimes changes brings smile to face

But sometimes just stab right at your heart

And that’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

I still remember those small fights

Those helping ways and guiding lights

It was so much fun

And everything seem so bright

But as nothing lasts long here

I got sadness again in my share

But I still don’t regret coz

That’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

You feel I don’t try to understand you

That you were never far away

Just a little busy with career things

Which no one can let escape

But I just have one question

Why that warmth has gone

May be we talk just for few mins

In that those memories can be re-grown

But the person who understand me

Without words didn’t do it this time

As that’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

I just don’t want anything from life

I know neither I can get back that time

Nor will get back you

But I just want to know

Why someone comes to you

Makes you feel that world is not mean

And when you start believing this

They move out of your life

And let you asking yourself

What was my mistake?

But that’s the unpredictability of life

By which no one can get apart

P.S : I don’t know why I pen down all this boring stuff here, but my depressed mind want to let out some thing of it, and I don’t have any other place.

P.P.S: Not real, neither complete fiction…

Voices Of My Heart - Part 1

Bhatke Hue Raahi Ko , Koi na Koi raah dikha hi deta hai

Gham mohabbat ka ho ya dosti ka, shayari sikha hi deta hai...........

Kisi ne humen dil se awaz di aur woh hum tak na pahunche

Aisa ho nahin sakta,
Hamarey doston tak hamara har raaz na pahunche
Aisa ho nahin sakta,
Unki dosti ka har lamha is tarah dil mein basa hai
Ki hazaron dard milney par bhi hum us dosti ko bhula den
Aisa ho nahin sakta.....................

Is naseeb ki baat na karo, isney bahut zakhm diye hain

Hamari raahon par kaante, nahin isney kam diye hain
Fir bhi issey ladtey nahin
Fir bhi issey kuch kehtey nahin
Kyunki isi naseeb ne hi to aap jaisey humsafar diye hain.........

Unse milkar is Dil ko yakeen hua ki sacchey dost bhi hotey hain
Is dhoop se jhulasti zindagi mein kuch pal chaon ke bhi hotey hain
Par jab wo bhi hamara saath chod gaye
To is dil ko kaise samjhayen, ki zindagi mein ye pal bhi aam hotey hain..........

I WISH I WORTH MORE THAN Rs.1.50

It was a normal cool night of April. Aman, a tall, handsome guy wearing spectacles on his nose was lying on his bed and waiting for the clock to strike 12 ,because next day was his birthday ,still 10 minutes were left .He was in deep thoughts, don’t know what was going in his mind but he was totally covered up by his thoughts. Suddenly, his phone rang, he saw the clock and it was exact 12. A smile came on his face as he picked up his phone, but it vanishes seeing the name that is flashing on the screen. It was his friend Shubham’s phone. He finally answered the call with half heart and received a lot of blessings from other end. Actually, Aman was expecting his best friend, Swati’s call.

Swati and Aman were not childhood or school friends. They have met just 1 year ago in college only but as life is always quite unpredictable, they turn into best friends in just a month. Though Aman was a quite, calm, sincere, thoughtful and helping natured guy Swati was a cute, fun loving, prankster and short tempered gal. Still they were best friends, reason only they better know. Swati always keep on falling in one or other trouble and Aman as usual pull her out of it…………But still she never thank him, coz she thinks that it was his duty as a best friend and still Aman never says anything coz he knows that she is a big stupid gal. The only thing that Aman doesn’t like was her miserly nature. She always gives him a miscall or send a sms, coz she never wants her money to be wasted, and poor Aman always have to call to this stupid gal.

Today too, Aman was expecting a call from her though he knows that she was out of Delhi for 2 days, that means on roaming and she never calls in roaming unless it’s a big emergency. But he believes that his B’day will make her call .In waiting for her call, when sleep overpowered him, he didn’t realize.

Next day, morning was quite bright and sun was shining, but Aman woke up with a dull mood. He quickly checked his mobile for any miss calls, but there were none. He gets ready and leaves for college. His friends were waiting there; they wished him and have got a Birthday Cake for him. With a portrait smile on his face, he cut the cake and celebrated his B’day. Then they went for a movie “Fast N Furious 4”. In the whole movie, aman’s focus was more on his mobile phone then the movie, but it didn’t rang.

After spending whole day with his friend’s, he returned back to his room. Whole day he got calls from his home, relatives, classmates but every time the phone rang his eyes were finding some other name. He switches on the TV and saw some news, but his eyes were glued to phone only. He remains awake till 12, but he didn’t get the birthday gift he really desired.

Next day, Swati was sitting in the canteen with her friends, holding a lovely new guitar in her hand. Aman always want a guitar but as he is too bad in saving money, so Swati know he can never buy it on his own. That’s why she was saving every penny from last one year so that she can gift him a Guitar on his Birthday. She was actually not a miser; she was just trying to save money for her best friend’s gift. She knows that if she will not wish him then next day he will come angrily to her and at that time she will give him the gift.

She was discussing something with her friends; suddenly someone came running to her and said:” Aman! Aman was hit by a speeding cab near the college and he has been rushed to hospital.”

The guitar fell from her hand and she ran towards the nearby hospital with tears running from her eyes. There she saw Aman was lying on the stretcher in a pool of blood, he was being taken to the Operation Theater. On seeing Swati, Aman tried to say something but can’t say. Finally just outside the OT he holds Swati’s hand and say:” I just wish, I worth more than Rs.1.50 for you” and he fainted. No one understood what Aman said but Swati burst into tears coz she knows what he mean. These were Aman’s last words coz he never returned back from that OT and they became a mystery for everyone.

From that day, Swati was never seen in a way she used to be before. She became quite serious and just tried to concentrate on her studies. Many times she can be spotted in her hostel room sitting with the guitar and just wishing that may be she can ever tell Aman what he mean for her and understands that her one phone call mean much more than a guitar for him.

May be Aman’s death was destined, but her one call that day can make him die with a satisfaction that he worth at least more than Rs.1.50 for his best friend.

(P.S: Don’t ever wait for telling someone how much he/she mean to you coz may be later you will never get a chance. Some people think of giving big surprises to their friends but they neglect small things by which they can give much more happiness to their friends.)

Friendship - In Honour of Ma Best Friend Sush

So finally this year 2008 is bidding farewell.
In these last hours of this year, I really want to write something on a good topic,
I thought about many things on which I should write, and then I reminded that this year has given me friends only, not only friends but very good friends.
So I have decided to write on friendship only.

Hmmmmmm
Friendship, that’s a great thing which every person wants in life from always, from the time the humans have started living. It is a great relation that a person can achieve in his/her life .With the modification and development of our society, its meaning keep on advancing but still the base remains the same.

Now talking about our generation .We are living in 21st century. Every person of today has become very much advanced. So they have changed the meaning of Friendship a lot. We always try to find a person or group of peers with whom we can just spent our time in a cozy and comfortable way. It can be a group of classmates in schools , college friends for college , group of colleagues in office , for net we have net friends, and for everywhere we by some means find someone. So we are with them and they are with us, as long as car of our life is moving on a smooth road. But as soon as some pit holes or obstructions starts coming on that road ,we find that our car is moving all alone, with no other car with us .At that time we think- Where all others are gone who are with us on smooth road ???
And we can’t find any answer and then we realize that actually we have not made any friends because as I think “Friends are never made but they are earned”.
Its not that friends, I mean true friends , we can never find ,but we have to do some work to find them and that’s why I always believe that friends are not made they are earned.

Many times people say that Best Friends, etc are all a useless thing, as these people have a belief that there is no need of any one like that. They say they have their family with whom they can share their every problem, so wads the need of a Best Friend???

First answer ma question:
Think all of the incidences of your life and then think:
Does u never have anything that u can’t even share with your parents???
Does u never feel the need of a person on whom u can trust just for everything???
Does u never think of a person who knows u better than you???
Does your heart never ask u to find a person whose shoulder u always get when your eyes become wet, no matter with happiness or sadness???
Does u never get caught in a situation from where u find infinite paths but not able to decide on which to walk???

I don’t know about u, but I always find positive answers of these questions.
So although our mind has developed, our society has became mean, but still we all need such a person on our life. Just the difference is that I ma accepting this fact and may be some of u will no accept it.
Second difference is that we all fear a lot to trust someone to that limit.
I am not at all saying that your fears are wrong. But my friends do u really think that without trusting anyone; u will get such a person. Think, the person sitting next to you in your college also wants such a person but he too has same fear. Then may be u both are with each other for 4 yrs but your that fear never lets u break such a thin line between two of u .Because my friend your trust on him will raise his trust on you.
I am not also saying that trust someone blindly, but my friend u can at least gave chance to other person. May be sometimes your trust will break and u have to face some adverse situations but my friend
“If u didn’t enter the pool because of fear of drowning, then will u ever be able to learn it .I don’t think so.”

Whatever I have said above is not just I have written, but I have faced every situation above, so I am saying all this from my personal experience.

So with this coming year 2009, I just wish that all of u should at least try to find a Best Friend, True Best Friend in your life, may be it will take sometime for you in finding him/her but believe me if u get him/her na, then your life will be floating like a bird flying in the sky.
At Last adding one very good message:
“Who is a friend??
I tell u:
Jo bin bulaye aaye,
Bewajah Sir Khaye,
Tum ek(1) kaho , wo chaar(4) sunaye,
Kabhi hansaye, kabhi rulaye,
Par hamesha saath nibhaye.
“