Baby Don't Know Why...?

Days and night go on and on

When i was thinking about this song

Coz i just want to say something

But when you come i just go missing

There's a reason

Why all this happen

It's just not a co-incidence

Baby don't know why

You never understand that

I can't love no one else

No matter how far

You go away from me

Only you will be my strength

I've been with you from so so long

Still why with you i don't belong

I know you've been through hard times

But what i've to do with this crime

Let go the past

Embrace my love

Try and give me a single chance

Baby don't know why

You never understand that

I can't love no one else

No matter how far

You go away from me

Only you will be my strength............

Random feelings 5

Tere saath nahin, par tere pass hu main

Tere dil me basa ek pyaara sa ehsaas hu main

Maana ki mujhse ruthi hui h aaj tu

Fir bhi tere liye sabse khaas hu main.....

P.S: No translation this time, coz its going too bad......

Random feelings 4

Aisi kya khata hui mujhse aey zindagi

Jiski mujhe baar baar sazaa mili

Apno ke shabdon ne roz thoda thoda maara

Ek baar mein sukoon ki maut kyun nahin mili...

*******

Hey life! What was my such a mistake

For which i get punished again and again

Loved one's words' kill me bit by bit daily

Why didn't I just get a peaceful death

Random feelings 3

Har Gham To Hans Ke Seh Gaye Hum

Par Kahin Ye Akhiri Sazaa Na Ho

Zindagi Se Tab Mohabbat Na Ho Jaye

Jab Zindagi Bachi Na Ho

********

I bore every pain with a smile

But it mustn't be my last punishment

That I fell in love with my life

When it isn't much left

Random feelings 2

Yuhin apni zindagi se nikal faikna tha

Toh zindagi mein aake jeena kyun sikhaya

Kam se kam humen ye shikwa to ni hoti

Ki hamara bi koi apna tha

**********

If you have to throw me out of your life like this

Then why you make me realize what life is

At least i don't have a pain that

I too have someone who is mine

Would you ever know ?

Why you lie to me, when you know I know you more than you do

Why you become upset, when you know I can bring that smile back

Why you want to be alone, when you know I won’t let you enjoy loneliness

Why you start ignoring me, when you know you can’t hide your tears from me

Why?

Just why?

Would you ever know, that your every lie gives me a fresh wound

Would you ever know, that your sadness made my world to stop

Would you ever know, that your loneliness leaves me deserted

Would you ever know, that your tears crash my whole world

Would you ever know?

P.S: One of the beautiful part of life is when you have a person who cares for you no matter who you are.........

Blind Trust

I can not trust you blindly

But doubting on you, is doubting on myself.......

Random feelings 1

Jab jindagi se koi umeed nain rhi thi

Tab tune haath pakadkar jeena sikhaya

Agar yuhin saath chodke jaana tha ek din, mere dost

Toh kyun is rote hue dil ko hasna sikhaya......

*********

When all expectations from life has been washed away

You were the one who show me how to live

If you too have to leave like this one day, my friend

Then why you made this crying heart learn how to smile......

P.S : Random thoughts really taking a toll on me...

Friendship.....

Friendship is not always only about :

- Being a shoulder for the friend to cry on

- Being a teddy to be hugged in sadness and happiness

- Being a personal diary to hold the darkest secrets

- Being the only medicine for heartaches

But it's also about being the silent guardian who takes care of you 24*7 without showing even after death.........

P.S: Have no ideas to write upon coz i am really screwed big time......just have written few lines on friendship so thought of sharing it...

Can't Escape Changes Anymore

That's it now

It's been a long time now, indeed a very long time

That i am escaping the changes that are coming my way

I was always a believer who believes in being himself

But i don't think i will be able to keep this faith any longer

Many a times i had survived the edges and rise

But this time i wanna dive deep into the darkness

And never return

It's just a new person that's going to arise now

The person i have kept chained for years

But when faith breaks, chains got loosened

And eventually led to break down

P.S: I never wanna go this fucking way but i think accepting this naked truth is the only choice i am left with

P.P.S: I am really offended for using this "f" word but i can't keep it off my writing anymore.Those who can't withstand please i am really helpless now.

Still Searching....

I wanna hate, but i can't

I wanna love, but i can't

I wanna trust, but i can't

I wanna betray, but i can't

I wanna win, but i can't

I wanna loose, but i can't

I still wanna live, but i can't

i wanna give up and die, but i can't

Coz fate's never been on my side and never allows me to get what i want

That's why i am a loner still searching for many answers !!

P.S: Merry Christmas to all of my readers......

Something Silly

I can't think of any other better name for it, coz its really silly to write letter to santa at this age .Infact i haven't written any letter to santa at all......But this time coz its a challenge sort of thing by a kiddo, sonshu so m taking it....

So here is my wishlist that i would want to get fulfilled:

1. My mom's good health(if only this too get fulfilled i don't care for any other wish)

2. An AUDI A4

3. A lappy with the config i have in mind

4. As i am too confused abt wad to do to become what i want, i want a "Map sort of thing" that can only tell me from where i have to start (i don't want to reach their directly as it mars its enjoyment i just want someone to show me the path)

5. Got rid of a bad habit ( :P habit can't b disclosed)

6. A private gym with a trainer

7. An invisible cloak (that would really be awesome to have)

Dat's all for now.......lets see if any of them gets fulfilled....

P.S: I am just waiting to see is first time letters ever answered?

First Dance - Tagged again

I was tagged by zave and sonshu for this, nd finally I thought of doing it as I haven’t completed a tag from a long tym……

I exactly get the answers matching for some questions below, and even to some ques whom answer I am searching. May b destiny has its own ways…..

Here it goes:

Rules::

1. Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, IPOD etc. on shuffle.
2. For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3. YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS

1. If someone asks you, “are you okay ? ?” you say:

No Love - Eminem

(Don’t know exactly but may be that myt b an answer)

2. How would you describe yourself ?

So Bad – Eminem

(Haven’t ever thought that this will come up, exactly the truth that’s goiin to happen)

3. What do you like in a guy/girl ?

Seduction - eminem

(No comments :P)

4. How do you feel today ?

Love the way you lie – eminem

(That’s the way I feel sometimes buut not xactly tday)

5. What is your life’s purpose ?

You and me – Justin bieber

(yeah that myt b a purpose too ;)

6. What’s your motto ?

Going through changes – eminem

(absolutely ryt boss…..dun’t knw shuffling cn give answers to u sumtyms)


7. What do your friends think of you ?

Tears don’t fall – Bullet for my valentine

(only they can answer it better)

8. What do your parents think of you?

Say goodbye to Hollywood - eminem

(no sense of it at all, but wad cn I do)

9. What do you think of often ?

That should be me - JB

(another direct hit, really I think somethings r definitely nt planned by us)

10. What is 2 + 2 ?

U smile - JB

(again nt makin ne sense here)

11. What do you think of your best friend ?

Without me – eminem

(well this myt b close to abt 75%)

12. What is your life story ?

Business - eminem

(lolll never think lyk dat)

13. What do you want to be when you grow up ?

Say what you say - eminem

(no idea)

14. What do you think when you see the person you like ?

Don’t go – JLS

(again a destined truth, hw cn dat happen yaar…..unbelievable)

15. What will you dance to at your wedding 4th anniversary?

Kiss and tell - JB

(lolll dat vl make a good song though)

16. What will they play at your funeral ?

Someboldy to love - JB

(I wud love if dey play “In The End – LP” but this is not bad though)

17. What is your hobby/interest ?

Angel – flipside

(no idea again abt it)

18. What is your biggest fear ?

Missing – flipside

(may b I fear of loosing my loved ones a lot)

19. What is your biggest secret ?

Happy birthday – flipside

(hv to think myself abt it :P )

20. What do you want right now ?

You and me - JB

(yeah I myt need a gf nw ;)

(@ zave wad u say :P )

21. What do you think of your friends?

Drips – eminem

(nt lyk dat atleast)

22. When you want to rush to the toilet, what do you think ?

Love me – JB

(:P atleast nt dat)

23. Person you hate the most is in front of you, what will you tell the person ?

Runaway – LP

(dats true I guess coz my anger lemme loose ma control)

24. You have just won a lottery. What will you sing ?

Down to earth – JB

(dat wud b a ryt at dat tym )

25. What will you post this as?

First dance – JB

(yeah may b coz I hv eagerly taken a tag aftr a long long tym)

I would love to tag Naina, Raaji ,Satyu and shas

P.S: Nowadaz I am having Eminem most in ma songs list, it wud b much fun if have a lot odr songs

Life's Not Over YET !!!!

A long holiday from college give me ample time to think about things.....

Everything was seeming to fall apart, and things aren't under control still at this time...

But thin long gap has made me realize that may be giving up isn't the only choice i have

Yeah, it's the most easy one at this time though

But keep moving is another alternative

May be still i am afraid of failures that might follow me in future

And past is haunting me again with full power

Still somewhere i have gained strength to stand

Until i am tormented in pieces by all pressures

So i am going to try till my last breath

Until my life's over

And if i am back here, then

Life's not over yet.....

P.S: i am back on blogger,still not regularly though, but i feel that's the place i can't ignore in my life...

Behind That Smile

Smile

A very pretty thing

People say that it can ease all your problems

But is it does so actually?

At least never does for me

I always bear a smile on my face

No matter what’s happening

But it don’t part from my face

That led people to think in different ways about me

Some think that I am cool….

Some others think I have no tension

Others have a view that I have become too casual

Some even say that I am too arrogant and egoist

But

No one ever knows that this is just a portrait smile

No one has noticed that it’s just of the fixed size always

Coz it just hide all that’s beneath it

All agony, pain, frustration, disappointments

Just everything

And I don’t have a single person who can see it

I have broken many times in the past

But have stood up every time

But everything has a limit

I am no superhero who has infinite courage

I am too human

I too feel pain

I too feel helplessness

I too want someone’s shoulder to cry on

I want some one to tell me what should I do?

Where should I head now?

I am too exhausted to stand by myself again

But

Yeah my life’s full of this “BUT”

I am saying all this is vain

I know that

Coz there’s no one to hear

I know my fate would never be grateful to me

And this time I am just getting buried

With a faster pace

Yeah, but still with that smile on my face

That fixed portrait smile

So everyone can again make their own judgments

about me standing by my cascade

I just wish at least a single person ever know “who was I actually?”

But I think no one can ever read the real face

Behind that smile.

(P.S: Its one the random thoughts that going on in my mind right now........can't help putting it out.)

Friendship....

It's not just about laughing at silly jokes,

It's also about sharing a shoulder to cry

It's not just about going on trips and enjoy,

It's also about holding your hand when things are falling apart

It's not just about doing mischievous things together,

It's about standing by your side when whole world is against you

It's not just about yesterday,today or tomorrow,

It's about being friends till the end

It's not just about friendship,

its about the friendship we share....

HAPPY FRIENDSHIP DAY

Someone has to fight.....

I can't back off now

I just can't

No matter how many tears my girl sheds

Coz I am leaving her alone now

But the path i have chosen

Demands me without any deviations

Without any emotions

Without any other priorities in life

It Just needs complete me.

A hard rock that can bear every pressure

I am not sure my path is sane or not

But i know i have to walk on it

Coz no one else will ever do it.

May be i get hatred and criticism in return

Or may be i loose even myself forever

But the step i have taken is inevitable

As the night has grown much darker now

And someone has to

Has to fight

For the dawn

Caught Behind The Mirror

Mirror

What an amazing creation?

It depicts our reflection in itself

Which shows us our true-selves

No matter what others are blabbering about you

Criticising you or appreciating you

Truth can always be seen in the mirror

In other words

It shows us our souls

From which we can't hide anything

But what when we are caught on the other side of it

From where we can't see any reflection

Coz we ourselves are the reflection now

We can't feel anything now

Noone's warmth

Noone's love

Just nothing

Can just see everyone passing by

It feels as if our soul has been snatched

It feels like getting trapped

Only our impression is on the mirror

Which is invisible to the outside world.......

Drug Named "LOVE"

I am fighting with this poison from many years

The poison thats destroying our youth

Which is making them a slave of itself

But i am encapsuled in its arms today

As nothing else might suffice for me now

Nothing else gives me strength to shoulder this grief

The grief of killing my own love

My love that's most precious for me

For me, a loner who is devoid of love

But i have no choice

Coz she's the one who is behind all this

Behind all the drug trafficking going on

And i can't let her carry on

Carry on this dirty business

And playing with life of innocent people

I did nothing wrong, but her last words

Words that she said while dying in my arms

"I am more addicted to your...........LOVE "

Words that echo in my head all day long

Coz i am a killer of myself

This poison business is totally eradicated now

But some of this poison is still with me

Getting accumulated in my blood

I might have won the battle against drugs

But i myself lost against the drug named "LOVE"

P.S: Feelings of an officer who eradicated drug trafficking but himself get encaptured in this poison..........

What I Never Said.....

I never meant to break your heart

Neither i ever want to leave you alone

But i have no choice

Coz from "You" and "Me"

I can only select "You"

And i know that's the right choice

May be you'll never know the truth

May be you'll hate me for the rest of your life

But i don't care

Coz what i care for, is now secure

"You" defines me

"You" completes me

Non-existence is much better than being................ incomplete

(p.s: i don't know what's going on in my mind, but please bear it if you don't like it, coz i am totally messed up nowadays......)